I don’t think I’d be clingy
if I lost my virginity. I mean, It’s not like my well is dry right now. Like, I
have numerous people vying for my affection. And literally that’s what most of
them want. So I feel like I could always yearn after numerous some ones instead
of trying to hop on the “D” of one person. THE one that took it. But, that’s
just it. I’ve realized more and more that my body is a temple. It is a beautiful
thing that many want. And the first one will always be THE one, whether I
choose to remember or choose to forget. He will be the one to have broken the
threshold and claimed my temple as his own and will always have that
right…because I will have given it to him. As much as I would love for my
husband to be that one, it’s hard for a girl to wait! But then again, I do know
that It’s not worth it to spread the legs for some kid at palm beach who I will
1)never see again and 2)know for the rest of my days was that weed smoker day in
and out. My standards, I like to say, are high, but if I settle into my
desires…into my vaginal yearnings, then I will prove my very own self wrong.
I like who I am. I’m pretty chill as a person. Fun loving. Understanding.
All that good shit. But I’ve learned that you should not readily give away who
you are for free…not ALL of you, and especially not at some two year school in
BFE on the global scale of importance an in your freshman year of actually
living. I’m still learning. Between “naivety” and “learning”, I don’t see “fuck
every dude you find attractive”. I mean, I can’t even pass my classes, so how
the hell am I focused on penis? Fortunately/Unfortunately, if that were a
class…I would probably pass.
It’s hard being a virgin out here in these streets. But I think it’s hard
being a virgin who is a freak but isn’t a slut. That’s like the craziest combo
of just sexual frustration. So what do you do? Give in…to regret? Stay shut
off…to desire? Meet in the middle…with no one waiting there? If college is all
about extremes, I think I’ve picked up on the 0 to 60 ordeal. Can’t anyone go
30mph with me?..Cuz if not, I might spiral and crash into an area of life I
never wished to be!
if I lost my virginity. I mean, It’s not like my well is dry right now. Like, I
have numerous people vying for my affection. And literally that’s what most of
them want. So I feel like I could always yearn after numerous some ones instead
of trying to hop on the “D” of one person. THE one that took it. But, that’s
just it. I’ve realized more and more that my body is a temple. It is a beautiful
thing that many want. And the first one will always be THE one, whether I
choose to remember or choose to forget. He will be the one to have broken the
threshold and claimed my temple as his own and will always have that
right…because I will have given it to him. As much as I would love for my
husband to be that one, it’s hard for a girl to wait! But then again, I do know
that It’s not worth it to spread the legs for some kid at palm beach who I will
1)never see again and 2)know for the rest of my days was that weed smoker day in
and out. My standards, I like to say, are high, but if I settle into my
desires…into my vaginal yearnings, then I will prove my very own self wrong.
I like who I am. I’m pretty chill as a person. Fun loving. Understanding.
All that good shit. But I’ve learned that you should not readily give away who
you are for free…not ALL of you, and especially not at some two year school in
BFE on the global scale of importance an in your freshman year of actually
living. I’m still learning. Between “naivety” and “learning”, I don’t see “fuck
every dude you find attractive”. I mean, I can’t even pass my classes, so how
the hell am I focused on penis? Fortunately/Unfortunately, if that were a
class…I would probably pass.
It’s hard being a virgin out here in these streets. But I think it’s hard
being a virgin who is a freak but isn’t a slut. That’s like the craziest combo
of just sexual frustration. So what do you do? Give in…to regret? Stay shut
off…to desire? Meet in the middle…with no one waiting there? If college is all
about extremes, I think I’ve picked up on the 0 to 60 ordeal. Can’t anyone go
30mph with me?..Cuz if not, I might spiral and crash into an area of life I
never wished to be!